Learning to trust mama

1st occasion : As usual, Sunday was spent at Woodlands. While i was helping out in the kitchen, my mother suggested that my father bring Jude to the playground. My father didn't say anything(his style for agreement). I thought it was an exellent idea and Jude, he already heard what my mother said and was waiting to wear his shoes at the door. cute!

But when they were ready to go, he realised i wasn't going and was really upset. he ran back into the house with his shoes on and protested very loudly. Ii thought my father was going to give up and ask me to go with him instead, but he was very cool and just stood at the door looking at Jude, much to my surprise. I decided i was going not to have another teary situation and he was going to the playground without me.

All these in the firmest tone(and regrettably, quite loudly):

"dun worry! wai gong will bring u back later! i'll be here waiting for you! i need to cook your dinner!"

Amazingly, he understood and went on to hold his wai gong's hands. He didn't look very sure and kept on looking back at me.

And off they went, no tears! Good boy!

2nd occasion : On Sat when i left him with his paternal grandparents for his usual morning play, he had shown the same kind of emotions - reluctant and crying at first, then calming down after my assurance(usually he wails till i'm out of sight). Good boy again! WOOhoo!

This is another milestone for Jude. I've longed for this day when he can understand and trust my words. It's about time for him to know it's alright that i can leave him for a while and i will be back for him. Sometimes, I feel like i'm his drug and it's tremendously taxing because he wants me to be around 24/7. For such a little person , it probably took him a lot of courage to learn to trust. I'm kind of glad i chose the 'cold turkey' way and let him cry his heart out everytime i leave him at his grandparents' place, but not without lots and lots of assurance, even though hearing his wailing is still heart-wrenching. I really do believe the fact that i keep all my promises to him helps a great deal.(opps i know i guilty of breaking promises to some of you! now u know why, cos i'm busy keeping promises to my son! :p)

Now, I am happy and really very proud of the little brat. I'll be starting my night classes soon in late July and i hope by then, he'll cope well without me around in some of the evenings. That'll be in less than 2 months time and by then he'll be 22months!