SIX LITTLE DUCKS

Six little ducks
That I once knew
Fat ones, skinny ones,
Fair ones, too
But the one little duck
With the feather on his back
He led the others
With a quack, quack, quack

Quack, quack, quack,
Quack, quack, quack
He led the others
With a quack, quack, quack

Down to the river
They would go
Wibble, wobble, wibble, wobble,
To and fro
But the one little duck
With the feather on his back
He led the others
With a quack, quack, quack

Quack, quack, quack,
Quack, quack, quack
He led the others
With a quack, quack, quack

Back from the river
They would come
Wibble, wobble, wibble, wobble,
Ho, hum, hum
But the one little duck
With the feather on his back
He led the others
With a quack, quack, quack

Quack, quack, quack,
Quack, quack, quack
He led the others
With a quack, quack, quack

Getting better

Jude has recovered, though not fully. He still has that thunder-like phlegmy cough and runny nose, but at least he's getting better(which lifted my spirits a little). I'm just disappointed he had to take that stronger dose of antibiotics.

Yup, i'm hugging this book to sleep every night now.

wish me luck.

big problem

i have a big problem trying to smile for the past week.

1) Cough medicine causing me to be in a trance-like state all day long. i sleep whenever jude sleeps. my kind of cough is the dry sort and it's really irritating especially when the air is cooler.
:(

2) Jude fell sick (again!!) with a sore throat. he probably got the virus from me.
:(

3) And falling ill for jude means more fussing during mealtimes and milktimes. He doesn't want to eat his porridge at all. I've been throwing away more than half bowl of his porridge for the past couple of days.
:(

4) I'm really upset becos i've been trying to keep Jude on a really healthy diet to build up his obviously poor immune system. He visits the doctor every month since 4th month. Really feel like banging the wall, especially when i'm the sole caregiver to him now. I have no idea what i've done wrong, or have not done.
:(

really really tired.

Learning to trust mama

1st occasion : As usual, Sunday was spent at Woodlands. While i was helping out in the kitchen, my mother suggested that my father bring Jude to the playground. My father didn't say anything(his style for agreement). I thought it was an exellent idea and Jude, he already heard what my mother said and was waiting to wear his shoes at the door. cute!

But when they were ready to go, he realised i wasn't going and was really upset. he ran back into the house with his shoes on and protested very loudly. Ii thought my father was going to give up and ask me to go with him instead, but he was very cool and just stood at the door looking at Jude, much to my surprise. I decided i was going not to have another teary situation and he was going to the playground without me.

All these in the firmest tone(and regrettably, quite loudly):

"dun worry! wai gong will bring u back later! i'll be here waiting for you! i need to cook your dinner!"

Amazingly, he understood and went on to hold his wai gong's hands. He didn't look very sure and kept on looking back at me.

And off they went, no tears! Good boy!

2nd occasion : On Sat when i left him with his paternal grandparents for his usual morning play, he had shown the same kind of emotions - reluctant and crying at first, then calming down after my assurance(usually he wails till i'm out of sight). Good boy again! WOOhoo!

This is another milestone for Jude. I've longed for this day when he can understand and trust my words. It's about time for him to know it's alright that i can leave him for a while and i will be back for him. Sometimes, I feel like i'm his drug and it's tremendously taxing because he wants me to be around 24/7. For such a little person , it probably took him a lot of courage to learn to trust. I'm kind of glad i chose the 'cold turkey' way and let him cry his heart out everytime i leave him at his grandparents' place, but not without lots and lots of assurance, even though hearing his wailing is still heart-wrenching. I really do believe the fact that i keep all my promises to him helps a great deal.(opps i know i guilty of breaking promises to some of you! now u know why, cos i'm busy keeping promises to my son! :p)

Now, I am happy and really very proud of the little brat. I'll be starting my night classes soon in late July and i hope by then, he'll cope well without me around in some of the evenings. That'll be in less than 2 months time and by then he'll be 22months!

Jude made someone cry

we were at Ikea. After shopping, we the mother and son team went to the cafe to eat meatballs. I know the kids at the tv area will keep Jude busy, so i tot i could savour my meatballs with yummy jam and sauce. Yeah, Jude was happy dancing in front of the audience of kids, but nobody bothered abt him at all becos the tom & jerry cartoon was more interesting.

then i think he became bored. he wandered to a table where there was a few kids there. i wasn't worried at all since i knew he just wanted to make friends, so i let him be. then suddenly there was a loud bawling.

not from Jude, from another boy! i didn't see it with my own eyes, but i guess that Jude must have poked the boy's cheeks and scared him.

oh my goodness, i quickly brought jude away. he was bewildered. i was embarressed.

How was i to explain to him that the boy didn't like the poking? Jude has this habit of poking other kids' cheeks and he has always been gentle, so i never stop him before. and in fact, i tot it was quite cute.

is there a toddler ettique class which Jude and i can attend?